27. Feels like I'm in limbo

My last chemo was the 9th April, so just over a month ago and surgery is on the 17th May so it's just a waiting game now.

I'm getting a little down and frustrated. Due to not having chemo, I feel fine, like I did before I started any treatment. But as soon as I try and do something more that just sitting on the sofa I feel crap. Can't walk very far without getting really out of breath. I get very tired quickly and my back starts to ache.

Even doing the washing up I have to stop and rest if it's more than a few plates.

This is very similar to the symptoms of Chronic fatigue and Fibromyalgia but this is another level. I got used to what I could and couldn't do with my Fibro but at the moment it's like I'm having to learn all my limits again. Plus it seems to be getting worse.

I'm sat here now at 1am unable to sleep. No particular reason, just can't shut off. Done some meditation and got up and out of bed for a bit, just still nothing. At least I don't have to worry about getting up for work tomorrow.

Due to how I've been feeling and my concentration levels are dropping weekly, I decided to take this month off sick. I think my body had hit it's limit.

Even crocheting at the moment it making my shoulders ache, so all I have at the moment are my friends;

• Netflix

• Amazon Prime

• Disney Plus

• Discovery Plus

I'm trying to get on the treadmill everyday, but I only manage about 10 mins.

I want to lose some weight as I've put on the 2 stone I lost last year and starting to look like Uncle Fester!

Well, weight loss will have to wait as once chemo starts again I'll be back on the chocolate fingers as that's the only thing I fancy eating.

Right I'm finally starting to yawn, so let's see if I can get to sleep.

Night/Morning all!